Every time we talk my heart seems to expand and take off. It’s the time in between that takes control, keeping me awake when I know I need the sleep. And with every blurred, distorted day comes more and more shit that’s left unsaid but felt just the same. I want to please you.

With every single taste of breath,
unfaithful eyes from every walk of life
longingly request the flesh.
Do you think about what you’d say if you saw me now?
Would you talk about how you’ve grown up, moved on, and figured it all out?
Or are you still just a liar with a tan-in-a-can and a case of perfume sprays?
Did you really think I was the only one here who needed to change?
We’re all fucked nowadays anyways.
A fight without fists in a war without hope.
Welcome to the Information Age.
funny how much has changed that stays the same. -- William Beckett



I'm a freshman sophomore junior at the oh-so-wonderful Brooke High.

I am a vegetarian.

I love my friends, tho I have very few, less than you all probably think. I'm not sure why, but apparently they love me too.

I'm very confused on who I consider my friends right now. There are some people I thought I hated and thought I would never be friends with, some that I'll never again be friends with but realized I don't hate them as much as I did, some that I've drifted away from(and that really hurts, tho I'll never admit that IRL), some who I think honestly don't like me, and some who I may not like(I'll never admit that either).

I think I've honestly grown up over the summer and that confuses me as well.



Now that I'm grown I've seen marriages fall to pieces, Now that I'm grown I've seen friendships fall to pieces.



That line is brought to you by The Academy Is... and holds very true for me.

I absolutely adore the boys of The Academy Is... and Panic(!) At The Disco.

I have said it in the past, but I don't think I've truly ment it until now: I don't care what you think.

You're gonna look at me and judge me on what you see and that will never be completely dislodged from your mind, no matter what either of us do. So I'm not gonna bother trying to change your mind. I'm over it.

That will most definitely change once I'm out "in the real world," but this is high school.
That doesn't really apply to those of you I meet online, for you may never know the true me.
I have an alter ego-ish thing.
I use Rayne most of the time, that's how people from other sites find/know me.
I'm pretty crazy random, but a tad on the over dramatic side.
My mom has said that I should probably be institutionalized.
Which just makes me think of that song. And want a Pepsi. I don't even particularly like Pepsi. I prefer Coke. Now I'm off topic. What was my original topic, anyhow?
I'm going to Bill & Trav's Bogus Journey Tour on the second of November.
Then the Sassy Back Tour on the twenty-first of the same month.
A few other shows here and there. Depends on the money situation. And how far away it is.
Well, I'm gonna shut up now, so if you wanna know more or just chit-chat, hit me up.

*The Academy Is...*, *Aiden*, All Time Low, Anti-Flag, Atreyu, *Automatic Loveletter*, Avril Lavigne, Betty Curse, Blink 182, Bloodhound Gang, Blue October, Brand New, Breaking Benjamin, Buckcherry, Bullet for my Valentine, Carolina Liar, Charlotte Sometimes, *Cobra Starship*, Cute is What We Aim For, Dropout Year, Fall Out Boy, Falling Over Failure, Flyleaf, *Family Force 5*, *Forever The Sickest Kids*' Foo Fighters, *From First To Last*, Good Charlotte, Green Day, Gym Class Heroes, Handshakes and Highfives, *Hawthorne Heights*, Hey Monday, HIM, Katy Perry, Leathermouth, Mayday Parade, Miley Cyrus, Modest Mouse, *Motion City Soundtrack(x2)*, My Chemical Romance, MxPX, *New Found Glory*, Nickleback, Nine Inch Nails, Nirvana, NOFX, *Panic(!) At The Disco*, Papa Roach, *Paramore*, The Paul Revere Jumpsuit Apparatus(lol), Pency Prep, Pink Spiders, Queen, *Red Jumpsuit Apparatus*, Rise Against, Saosin, Say Anything, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Senses Fail, Seether, Shiny Toy Guns, Simple Plan, Sing It Loud, Sonny Moore, *Story of the Year*, Taking Back Sunday, Three Days Grace. *Underoath*, The Used, Weezer, Winter's Halo

The Nightmare Before Christmas, Across The Universe, Resident Evil, Incredibles, most Disney movies, anything about zombies, Pursuit of Happyness

Law&Order, Scrubs, Spongebob, Fairly Odd Parents, Chowder, Family Guy, InuYasha, Death Note, Bleach, Shin Chan, Robot Chicken, Pokemon

Harry Potter, Twilight Saga, Inkheart, Inkspell, Perks of Being a Wallflower, anything by Chuck Palahniuk, Shadow Saga, Revealers, Wicked, Wicked Lovely, Ink Exchange, Black Tattoo, Brave Story, manga